Hello again, unfortunate souls to stumble upon my blog for whatever reason. I do not blame you.
Lately, I have had a lot of time to think. I have graduated from undergrad and I am now taking some more classes to beef up my resume a bit for grad school applications, potentially as a osteopathic doctor or a physician assistant (look it up).
In retrospect, I have had very little social interaction over the past five years. I have never had a girlfriend or significant other, I am 22, and I barely keep track of my other friends aside from google+ or facebook. It is rather depressing and I am occasionally curious if I still retain my social skills at all. At times I wonder if I need to find someone else to lean on and support simultaneously, why should I need someone else? I reach the conclusion that I am limited and I need to find someone who understands these limits and accepts me regardless of them and in exchange I do the same and support them the best I can. In the bible, many claim it says "wives, submit to your husbands", which I see as a form of deep respect, not an overbearing form of control. It also says that the husbands are to love their wives as Christ loved the church and Jesus died on a cross after being brutally tortured and was stuffed in a tomb for three days. Sure he comes back, but after that anyone would have a bad day, at least until the resurrection part that is.
As I said, I am taking classes to beef up my resume, but I have no current employment so my father supports me. I am completely indebted to him in this regard. When the lawn needs mowing, I mow. If he asks me to take care of an errand, I do it. If he wants the cloths folded, I am in there as soon as I can be. His job pays enough to support me and my tuition, but I still feel so guilty about it. I feel that, being in my youth and thus the prime of my life, I should be helping to support him. I plan on shadowing and making the best use of my free time and possibly getting my old job back as a hospital receptionist. I am excited about my classes though. I never got a chance to take anatomy and physiology at my first school because I was pursuing a chemistry minor.
I hope and pray all goes well. For now I am tired, sleep and coffee are needed.
